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So it's almost over. I've almost completed all of my seven years at this school. I have to admit, there have been some pretty weird things that have happened. I knew that it wasn't going to be normal. When my special abilities showed up, mom explained that I'd be going to a school like this one. We assumed that it would be Hogwarts. Dad wanted me to go to Beauxbatons for fear that I would get my hormones and go wild like some of the Muggle teenagers that he used to know. I've done pretty well so far on that end. I'm not a very wild person anyway. I kind of wish I had been a little bit more outgoing when it came to telling someone that I liked him, but that's past now. Why is it that I'm excited that I'm graduating, but I'm looking back on all of the regrets that I have at this school?

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What's everyone's plans after we get out of this place? I'm curious.

So I guess I should share the good news. Dad picked me up from the station. When I asked him why mom wasn't with him, he just said that she was sick and didn't feel up to making the trip. "Sick" That's one way of putting it. Imagine my surprise when I came home and saw my mother with a tummy sticking out size of a basket ball. Pregnant. At her age. I had been asking my parents for siblings for the good part of my life and now they decide to have one when I am practically out of the house?! How could a thing like this happen?

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I felt so bad for Isabel yesterday. I could only imagine if I lost a sibling. I mean, I don't have anyone that is close to me, but I would imagine that it would be hard. I just wish that was nicer to her. I didn't even think. She probably was still morning. Dammit I ruined that one. I hope that she can forgive me for doing that.
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I got my response from my mother today. It's the first letter that she has responded to in awhile. She is doing well as usual but I'm interested to know what's going on with the ministry nowadays. When I wrote to my mom before, and asked her what her latest project is, she said that she couldn't talk about it. The thing is, that my mom isn't one of those people that has to hide what's going on at work. So, something has to be going on. I mean, she works with Muggles. What could be going on there?

Things have been very interesting around here I must say. How's everyone doing with our friends who are trying to set us up? I'll bet there are some pretty good matches around because of them. Too bad non of them tried to get me with anybody.

Private
So next week is Valentines Day. Yet again, I have to sit back and watch everyone else have their warm and gushy feelings come out. I guess I am used to it. Valentines really isn't something that I've ever actually celebrated. I mean, I've never had a boyfriend before so I didn't really have anyone to celebrate it with. Arg. What is wrong with me? Usually I am alright with this week, but it just seems like everyone is in heat all of a sudden. There are people everywhere kissing and making out. Mind you, they aren't doing it when a prefect or someone is around... but still. I WOULD LIKE TO BE SHOWN THE SAME COURTESY. I just wish I knew what the hell is going on with these people.
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People PLEASE Note: Please do not snog in the middle of the hallway. I understand that you are probably feeling a lot of warm and gushy feelings right now... but please let's try to keep it at least a little clean.

PRIVATE
Just taking a break to let myself get a bit of a breather. I had the worst day today. On top of the fact that I was late for my first class because some annoying first year spilled stuff all over me, I also got double potions homework again. Then, on the way to another class I tripped and fell on the floor. It was so embarrassing Thank God I didn't see anyone around me at the time, that would be horrible. Could you imagine? I would be the laughing stalk. Not that I probably already am because of that first year.

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PRIVATE TO ANDREW

I think that the first years who we bombed with snow are trying to get payback.

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Has anyone seen a green dangle earring anywhere?

Private
I got a letter from Mom the other day, a letter of surrender. She acknowledges that she was way too protective over me and smothered me a bit. I don't know where this came from, either it be from her feeling guilt toward not having me home for christmas or whatever else, she seems different. Happier even. I can't explain it, but I think that something has gotten into that woman. She actually said to "live my life the way I want to live it". If the apologizing wasn't enough.. this was way out of the blue. Though it is a little weird, I am happy that my parents have warmed up to me again. I was starting to miss them dearly.
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Things are finally starting to get a little bit back to normal. No matter what, it won't be Hogwarts though. We've gotten our houses back and it is interesting to know that a lot of people I've talk to have said that they miss being mixed in with the other houses. I have to admit that I will miss a lot some of you.

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At least I got a card and a present from my parents this year. I still can't believe that they were so keen on getting me so many things. When I woke up and all of the presents were around, I thought that I was dreaming. I didn't exactly expect anything since my parents decided to make me stay home. This probably means that they felt guilty for making me stay at home. I wish I knew how to talk to them and tell them that I still love them.

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Merry Christmas Everyone.

So, I've decided that this year I wouldn't make a fuss about Christmas. I mean it comes every year and there will be next year and everything.

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I can't believe them. I mean I knew that we weren't on good terms with each other but how could they make me spend Christmas at school? I mean. I've never spent Christmas at school before. I mean what are we going to be doing? Christmas should be spent with family. Even if you are having problems with one another. Especially then. I mean I thought that Christmas was supposed to bring people together. Not Apart.

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So, I haven't written in a while. It's been interesting to see everyone's reactions to all of the things that happened and to see my own as well. I've remained calmer then I would have about a year ago a couple of months ago. I think that I did not react as badly is because I think that I'm getting used to things now. My parents have shielded me from everything that I wasn't used to bad things happening. I think that the one thing that actually upset me this entire thing was what happened to Ernie. I mean buried alive? I couldn't fathom that, but then again I couldn't fathom being burned alive either. I just don't want anything to happen to him or anyone else for that matter.
I wrote a letter to my parents telling them everything that happened. I know exactly how they will react too. Mom will most likely tell me that she was right about not getting into something that you can't control not to mention something that can hurt you. Dad, being the subservient person he is to mom.... will say "Listen to your mother. She knows best.". I hate this thing between me and my parents, but I must say that it has helped me to grow more than I ever would have in the past. If I had still been under my parents influence, I would have never have gone to that party on Halloween. I would have never have loosened up. I would have never danced. I would have never gotten my first kiss. Sure, I don't know who the guy was that gave it to me, but it's better then never experiencing it. Right?
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I think that when everyone has gotten better, (Aurors included) we should have a party of sorts.

I am going to be in the infirmary for the night and will be back tomorrow unless Madam Pomfrey objects. I hate this place and wish I'd never come. I went to sleep last night in my bed. I slept peacefully until I had a dream that I was in potions and I was making something and a fire started. I was trying to put the fire out in my dreams when I noticed that I was getting hot. Really hot. I woke up... not in my bed BUT IN AN OVEN BURNING ALIVE. I of course when I saw that I was burning and started to scream. I am so thankful that a house elf was in the room or it could have been worst. I do need to say that I am so sorry to one of the house elves for screaming at them. I was upset. I realize that you didn't know that I was in the oven... but I was kind of upset that you turned it on. Whatever the hell this thing or things are... they really don't like witches or wizards.


OH AND IF I HEAR ONE MORE JOKE FROM ANYONE ABOUT BURNING AT THE STAKE... I SWEAR...

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I don't want to spend the night alone tonight. What happens if I get put in the oven again?
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It's been a bit weird around here lately. People have been having things happen to them. It would not be as bad if it were just pranks but something is going on here. I think that it is something Demonic. How else would you explain all of the things that are happening? I mean first the axe getting so close to my head and then everyone else's stuff happening to them... it's starting to get worse then what happened during first year. At least then we had name of something to be scared of.

That brings me to what happened on Halloween. I'm never going to a party in town again. I thought that it was going to be this "adult" experience. By this, I thought that we were going to dress up and have dinner and a couple of drinks. But that place.... was horrifically whorish. I didn't expect to see so many people there that were dressed so... well let's just say that they didn't have a lot of clothes on. I felt a little out of my place in my outfit. I wish I had known about the other party upstairs. I heard that it was a bit more tamed. I also could have sworn that I saw someone there that looked like Teo... but she had blonde hair so it couldn't have been her.

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I wish we knew what is going on here. It's starting to get bad. Any ideas?

PRIVATE TO SELF
I'm trying to figure out what I want to do this Friday. I can either stay at school or go to this masquerade thing that seems to be happening in town. I guess I'm just up for something a little bit different. Something that can get me into trouble in some way. Doing exactly what my parents wanted me to do for most of my life tends to make me want to do crazy things.

I'm also a little bit scared about what has happened to Cypris. I mean, I miss her.
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HEXED AGAINST SCHOOL OFFICIALS AND AURORS

OK Ladies and Gentlemen. Who is going to the Halloween diner here at school and who is going to the masquerade in town?

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I just wanted to ask a question. Has anyone seen my owl Cypris? She has a habit disappearing for short times, but because a lot of people's pets have disappeared. I just wanted to know if anyone has seen her. I'm starting to get a little worried.

Thanks.

Whoever wedged that AXE near my head while I was sleeping… it wasn’t funny. I swear… If I ever find out who the fuck it was I’m going to take revenge. Can you imagine how I felt waking up to that?! I realize that when we first got here I was a little edgy, but does that constitute doing this to me?? Really?! I don’t want to sleep with anyone. At least when I was with just the Gryffindor girls I knew that I was safe. Now I have to worry about someone trying to kill me?!!!

I swear. If I find out who did this.. YOU ARE GOING TO BE SORRY.


Private to Gryffindors

It was probably one of the Slytherins.

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I can't breath I'm so upset right now.

I have to say that I am very happy about what team I am on. Especially since we've got the best name out of everyone. I am also glad that no one on our team really sucks. I mean I had my fears at first but we're really doing very well. Ginny is an excellent captain.

On another note I've decided to pose the question to everyone here. When was the first time you found out that you had powers? I'm just curious because my mother just wrote me a letter. Even though it wasn't a very nice one and mentioned the first time I used my magic. I was five. I don't actually remember this so I'm going on what my mother told me. Anyways, apparently I really wanted a chocolate cookie and the nanny told me that I wasn't allowed to have one. I kept on trying to get the cookie jar so she moved it on the highest shelf that she could think of. Well as soon as she turned around I had the cookie jar in my hands smiling. Well, as you can figure out the nanny knew that I came from a magical family because she was a dear friend of my father's side. However, that did not stop her from getting a bit upset. She waited til my mother came home and told her. My mother of course was elated. But that's the story. When did you first use your powers?

PRIVATE TO SELF
I hate lying but I really hate practices. I mean who the hell decided that we should switch up the teams anyway? I swear... if Thomasina ruins this for me...
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PRIVATE TO GINNY
Thomasina on our team? I mean, has she ever actually played?
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Things seem to be falling in place around here, which is more than I expected. Classes are going well enough and the homework has been keeping from going out of my mind me from getting into too much trouble. It took me about a week to get used to the bunk beds but I think that I've gotten used to them by now. I was thinking the other day about my sister. If she had been a witch, it would have been her first year here. I think that I would have liked to have her here. I mean she gets on my nerves but I think that she would have made a good student. Except for the fact that she well.. doesn't have any magical powers.
I hate hated the fact that we got rid of the houses at first but I'm starting to like the fact that you are not who you are because of your house. You are who you are because your just that kind of person. People should remember that. There have been a couple of instances of slytherins of people being mean to one another. I am partially to blame and must tell you that I am sorry for a lot of things that I have said. Especially since someone called me into his office I've also been told that I should tell you all that I won't inflict bodily harm an anyone at least with any weapons.

To all previous Gryffindors and Hufflepuffs only:

Don't let anyone pick on you. If you need anything, let me know.

I'm sitting here packing and doing my own thing right now. I have to say that I am having mixed feelings about moving to another place. On one hand I am excited to go. I mean, I'm interested in the place that we're going to mostly because it's an island. Even though I don't think it will be the biggest place in the world, I still think there will be new places to explore. On the other hand, I'm going to miss the familiarity of Hogwarts. I know that horrible things happened there and it would never be the same but I can't help but remember all the great times I had there.

Private to Self

Bloody Hell. My parents are being idiots right now. They are still mad at me to taking up arms at the castle when the fighting happened, but I couldn't help it. I had to do something. I had let things get too far with everything that I could no longer just stand by. I had to do something. I still feel like I need to do something. I just wish that my parents wouldn't live in fear this way. I guess they have a point though. Everyone thought that "He Who Must Not Be Named" was dead the first time and he came back. What happens if it happens again?

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This place better have a Quidditch field.